Dubai -- Today, 23 of November, I decided to stroll alone. People here are so busy, actually the situation here is the same as that of the United States. So I decided to be brave for a while and wander the streets of Dubai. I thought, hey! This is great but then, I got lost in going to this internet cafe. I look like a child lost on her way home. Good thing, I already have a mobile phone to use... Kinda scared me at first but if i don't try doing this over and over, nothing will happen to me, might get stuck in the house forever, which is kinda dull actually...

Actually, the rest here is so relaxing that i might lose interest looking for a job which is why i'm starting now..

Guess that's it! =)

Today is the 22nd of November...The weather here is cold and clear.... We walked the whole time... Actually, the exercise is worth it because there are a lot of spots to look at though the people here are not that friendly or maybe i'm still not open to the possibilities that i might have a friend who is of a different race... Whatever... The most important part of my trip here is the fact that finally we are now united! Can't believe it really... After the plane landed, I'm still in a daze... "Am I really here?" I searched the crowd for a familiar face. I immediately saw his... Nothing much changed.. He still has those same beautiful eyes that I look at whenever we talked, he still has the same lips which i kissed a lot (but more often now!)... those little things that makes my heart skip are there... I, again, saw that same glimmer in his eyes.. Finally... This experience is definitely worth the wait.. I hope you saw "the meeting"... it's true what they say in the movies that the whole world stops when the person you love is now with you... I'll end this but expect more about the trip and experience I'd be having in this wonderful place? =D 

'tis the end of a weekend (again) but i don't feel any pressure or burnout.. maybe because, i had a great time with my officemates last saturday. Sad to say, i had a super dooper great time even if that asshole was there! Maybe the "happy feeling" that i had overcomed whatever hatred i felt for that guy... Lemme tell you that's only for that weekend! BELIEVE ME! or maybe because of this feeling that i have.. I'm officially leaving! =) I can't believe it!!! Here i was just last week, seriously considering my boss' offer to promote me to another position... but i guess God has other plans for me, which is, for me to expand my horizons and not stay in that office. For once, i don't feel burnt out or tired or whatever you want to call it. I think i'm flying... I suddenly see myself as a bird, who can now leave the nest and explore the world, what is out there? Out there? What kind of people will i meet there? Will they like me? Will they welcome me? I feel a bit lonely... In just a few days, I'll leave my family and friends - my treasures...But... I will be there with someone i longed for a year. Wanting to hug and kiss him... As they say, we just have to take the risks. And i feel this is the time for me to enjoy myself... I have this thought that i'm not enjoying my life or myself. When i come home, I feel like i have to transform and be a responsible sister, looking after my brother and my sister, making sure that my mom will have something for dinner and to check if everything in the house is okay, to see if my dad did this and that and to be there for them if they need me... A friend once told me that i'm giving myself too much, that i don't know how to enjoy life because of all these duties that i have. It's actually not that of a big deal--but sometimes, you get tired of it. I know that i shouldn't complain and whine about all these things... It's my duty for being the eldest but can't somebody sometimes do it for me? Will that be too much to ask? Or i'm the problem? Or i'm just overreacting? Well... maybe now's the time for me to enjoy, have fun! ----------------------What a wonderful feeling----------------------- I hope you all share it with me and do pray for me to enjoy my life there. Thanks.

work! the day is about to end and i still can't believe that was already the long week end! uurrggghhh! Now, i have to see the same people and that shitty guy whom i despise so much! I'm still not satisfied with the long weekend! GIVE ME MORE!!! I was not able to rest... well, maybe i did if you think having a pedicure at a salon is rest then maybe i did.. =( I'm not making sense... i know.. i have a lot of things in mind.. i can't write them because i want them to remain in my mind for a moment before i let them go...

Today, i don't know what to feel... i'm so tired.. that's correct! Tired is the perfect word for it. I actually don't know how i can stand the office's pressures and all the irritating stuff. Well, i hate the emotional "something" the office has, it's like some people there are linked with one another..like an umbilical cord that links two siamese twins or somehting to that effect, i mean everything you do in the office is personal.. i totally hate one of the guys in the office.. if i can just have the guts to shout at him and tell him to back off! I WOULD! But of course, i can't because i always pose as somebody who is so nice and sweet but really, i would definitely, give that guy one good blow before i leave the fucking office.. i reached the peak of my "burnout-atious" last night when we had to stay so late in the office.. i was there with nothing to do.. I mean, i was just doodling stuff in my notebook, pretending to be doing something in my computer because the Oz won't let me get out of the office.. =( just like that, she has the power to dictate if you leave the office or not.. AAARRRRGGGHHHHH!!!!!! What's worse, i have to hear her babble about things not related to me.. but hey, at least i get to know the buzz about the "people" behind the news.. What's worse, nobody can pick me up because i was too damned far! Relax... Breathe.. Today, i'm thankful because i won't see the fucking guy from the office, i don't need to pretend to be someone im not.. and last, i have peace (even for a short while) Im totally alone in "our" room right now. The other occupants left the house to enjoy! HAH! I'm the one who needs it but i can't get it! Im insane.. totally..