Start of the week.

For weeks, I have been planning to write a blog but nothing comes up until now…

Just last Thursday, I got this terrible sore throat… I thought at first I could manage but when I began answering calls, it became worse! My bosses told me to take the day off and so did my “fashionista” officemate.

Our service driver brought me home. Walking to the elevator and pressing “4” was an agony. My head was spinning… Finally, I reached our floor…

I opened our door and went straight to our room. Rob was waiting for me. Worried.

He was sweet the whole time.   He cooked for me and made me a cup of coffee… He even bought me a bunch of oranges from a nearby convenience store to make me feel a bit better.

I felt pampered. After eating about two oranges and drinking my medicine. We lay down in bed. He was stroking my hair till I fell asleep.   I didn’t notice the time but he was pulling away from my hug…he has to go to work… I asked him to stay… He said ok… for five more minutes…

After five minutes, I was all alone in our room. My flatmate came by and took my temperature. According to her, I was having chills then that is why she asked me to put on a jacket and also asked me to drink my medicine. I suddenly missed my mom.

Back in the Philippines whenever we’re sick (my siblings and I) my mom would always sleep beside us, take our temperature and wake us up to drink medicine.

Around 8:30 in the evening, Rob called me up asking his patient what she wants for dinner… I said --- CHINESE CHOPSUEY STIR-FRIED NOODLES ---- he said, ok.

9:30 in the evening, my doctor came with my remedy, a kiss, bunch of hugs and my Chinese Chopsuey Stir-Fried Noodles!

A lot of things have been occupying my mind lately… Let me list it down one by one:

1. My job – I think our project is coming to an end. So that means, I would be relocated to another place with no friends and no enemies (hehe). However, it is still tentative because we might extend here (you’ll never know).

2. My vacation – I’m due for vacation on October but with the so-so issue about the project being done it’s still on hold (but geez, I hope I could go even for a vacation… I miss my family and all the stuff I do back home).

3. My relationship – It’s also in see-saw mood… Sometimes Rob and I fight, sometimes not. It’s hard to predict when the fight will start. I just hope we don’t go on like this or else, we’ll easily get tired of this relationship. I know both of us are trying very hard not to be on each other’s nerves… however, sometimes can’t be left just like that. He has this attitude of hating lengthy discussions and another is he hates explaining his feelings and finds a hard time to let go of his angst.  

4. My family – My mom and dad are kinda on the rocks now. I actually don’t know how to answer all these questions I have inside my head like how it happen and why so that is one of the main reasons why I want to go home to find out for myself. Of course, calling both of them can help but being there personally will bring more answers.

5. Our prospective business – My cousin and I plans to put up a business in the Philippines. We already have something in mind but then I’m still looking for something else, just in case the prospect we have will not push through.

6. My current state – I’m kinda confused. I want to stay here because the compensation I get here is far from what I’ll get if I stay in my homeland but I’m not exhausting my craft which is writing … I don’t know… I always have this dilemma in me, what should I follow? The call for higher wage or practicing my craft. Before you think of something else like if I’m a good writer or what? I’m not but I want to be one. Not the type that people worship like F.Sionil Jose or Jessica Zafra but something like being able to reach people through writing. Sometimes, I believe I’m getting good at it but these are all self-study. I’m not even sure if the grammar I’m using is the proper one or not.

I guess these are the top priorities in my life right now (not in proper order though).

It has been four days since one of our superiors left for his vacation (yay!). Work was kinda light not in the sense that we don’t have anything to do but it was tolerable because our other Boss does not make us wait in his room while he reading the letters or signing stuff for distribution.

Yes! We’re kinda pissed with the other one because he always pressure us and make us cram certain letters or tasks that in the end doesn’t need to be done for that day – at all! We sometimes feel he’s power tripping but that is of course, a personal opinion only.

Now, we sigh with relief as we do our day-to-day tasks. Everything is a-ok. No shouting (“Where are you?”) and no pressure (“This us URGENT! So, PUHLEEZZZ do it NOW!). I could conclude that though work is more fun!

Just want to post this one… to share how light we feel nowadays… sadly, this happiness will only be for 15 days…  

A start of a new week here in Dubai… I hope it will be a good one.

Last week was kinda terrible for me and you all know that terrible means having a word war with Rob. Yup. We had one.

It started last Tuesday… It was about 10:30 in the evening… Dinner was ready and my flat mate and I were just amusing ourselves by watching TV. I was already hungry but decided to wait for Rob to come home so we could eat dinner together since that’s the only meal we get to see each other. 11:00 came and no Rob so I tried ringing his mobile but no answer.

After a few minutes, he SMS me and said that he was on his way together with his cousin. That was okay. I ate dinner along with my flat mate and retired to bed. I decided to read for a while to wait for him. 12:00, I again called him up but still no answer… a few minutes, he SMS me again --- “Sleep now, I’ll just tell it to you later. I Love you.”

From that, I decided to sleep because I knew that they’re in a bar…

A few hours past, he came and hugged me and apologized. He explained the whole situation.

My cousin picked me up from the shop along with another friend. We reached the area where we were close to the bar we frequented on, my cousin, G, asked me and my friend if they could drop by for a few drinks. Of course, I was caught off-guard and he said that it’ll only be for a few drinks, I said it’s ok.

We ordered a pitcher of beer. I saw your call but then my friend, K grabbed my mobile and didn’t want me to answer the call so I just sent an SMS to you. We were about to go when K saw a friend of his and gave us another round of beer and a plateful of clamares. Who am I to say no? We accepted and say thanks. I wanted to go home already so what I did was to gulp as many glasses of beer as I could just to finish the pitcher. You called me up again. K again took my mobile from me and said --- “You’re not yet legal yet she acts like that.” ---That’s the story. I’m sorry if I didn’t tell you the whole thing earlier.

I got mad. First, because he lied to me and second because he didn’t defend me (regarding K’s comment)…

Wednesday came. He was still apologizing… He even messaged me asking me if explaining the whole situation was not enough for me to forgive him… Of course, I know, I’d forgive him but it’s not easy. About lying to me… I can take it but not defending me from his friend, that’s something else isn’t it?

We went to this party… I thought my other flat mates were not going, so I made a plan so I need not go. However, I failed because they, too, wanted to go. So, I came along with them but totally ignored Rob and the rest of the bikers.

During the dinner, they noticed that we’re not talking and also asking if I was mad with Rob. I didn’t bother answering them. I’m just too pissed to even care. After a few minutes, K came. I, too, ignored him – the whole night. Both of them.

I was hurt. I felt like I was misjudged.  

Thursday came. I decided to speak with Rob because I don’t want the fight to prolong. He said, I embarrassed him in front of his friends. We should have acted like everything was ok he said.  I told him, I didn’t like the idea because if that was the case then we might never distinguish what is real and what is not (in case we have several fights like this). He said I always make small problems a BIG issue. I told him, Is misjudging me a small issue to you?! What if he was saying all those behind my back? He’ll just let it be? Rob kept quiet. Maybe I made a point.

He said for him fighting means that we don’t have love for each other anymore. I told him not every relationship ends as perfect.

We’ve talked about the fight and slept on it. I’m still not comfortable with K… I realized now that he’s a total jerk and maybe a loser. My flat mate and I wonder if he’s a bisexual. I don’t know but Rob is kinda pissed with him too because according to Rob, K always asked silly and embarrassing questions… not only that, he asks it in front of everybody. Rob told me last night that K might be jealous of me. Why? I have every right to be with Rob.