with me getting a bit pissed.

In a diverse country like Dubai, officemates / friends / acquaintances, who came from different countries with different cultures, react to situations differently.

I was busy doing the regular 'draft this letter for approval' routine that I do, when one of my managers gave me documents for approval. I have typed the 'draft' two days ago when I stayed late while waiting for my immediate boss.

Since I just waiting for the document to be approved by my boss, I emailed the soft copies to my colleague giving her instructions and informing her that since she has the originals, she can type it up... we are just waiting for the approval.

*Beep*

She sent me an e-mail and with this message:-

OK mam

I just stared at my monitor and (well, you know what I did?! F**K). Why does she have to react like that?! I got so pissed about it that I had to tell one of my colleagues (who then told me to ignore her or better yet I should have replied - Thanks Boss!!!) and to my good friend (who then said that I should just let it be because she has some mood swings because of her pregnancy).

Why does she have to do that to me when I told her before that I don't like being called 'Ma'am' or 'Madam' because regardless of your position, we should respect each other as co-workers! Yet she does this to me?!

I was soo pissed (I don't know if I'm reacting to this because I'm having my period...)!!! I just cannot get it out of my head?! Why do I have to deal with this most of the time ... people look at me as if I don't deserve what I get?!

Why? when I worked hard for whatever I am getting??

Now, my weekend is ruined and I'm in sooo much pain

My mind has been blank for sometime... I think I lost some body and mind coordination when I got sick.

I have been making a lot of errors at work (though I think no one has actually noticed the errors -THANK GOD!)... and I'm still trying to sort out a heap of paper at our house thanks to me (i.e. magazines, newspapers, books and the list goes on and on...)

I need to straighten myself out!

I have decided to take a step... that is to at least accomplish something today... whatever that is, I don't know but I do hope something will be done...

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7 months ago, I had to deal with issues that kind of let me wonder if I should even be here in this country...Now I'm opening up to a new challenge and that is to make 'new friends'. It's hard for me... I actually had to think this through. I felt bad that I even have to think about it because who should actually think twice about having friends?

I mean friends are like jewels right? You should embrace and in fact feel privileged that people would want to be your friend.

I find it hard to deal with.

Rob says it should not be the case. He said that I should forget about what happen in the past and start over.

I should not let the past determine my future and in this case, my relationship with other people.

I know I should not but it's like I have this thought that it might happen again. I would invest a lot on that relationship only for it to be ruined by God knows what?!

But I think Rob is right... I just find it hard to do so.

I hope I will be able to soon (sooner if possible).

I don't know if I should really blog about this but I just can't let it go.

Remember my post about the 'kare-kare'?

Well, trying to prove myself and I guess to Rob that I do know how to cook a dish, I braved the supermarket and bought myself an ox's tail and decided I need to cook this dish again or it will haunt me forever!

I followed everything stated in the recipe (except for the peanut butter. background: I know they don't require the peanut butter but having it on the dish makes it creamy!)... I think I boiled the tail for like 3 hours straight!

Voila!

Now, I can add that to the list of homegrown dish that I have learned to cook! And let me tell you, if I did not get sick for the past three weeks, I could be whipping a few more dishes! Tonight, it's dimsum for Rob and me, however, it's still is home-cooked because I did it all by myself!

There! It's out! I just feel so proud about it because people who have judged me thought I'd never lift and stir a pot... well, I just proved them wrong...