I think I have learned my lesson for being soo mean that I got a lot of things to thank for today:-

1) My boss has approved my leave!!!

It's nothing official yet but I have verbally asked his permission if I can go on leave (oopppss! Not going to tell when cause I might jinx it!)

2) This is related to No. 1

Since my leave was verbally approved, I immediately searched online if there's available bookings on XX and XX of XXXXXXX - you won't believe it! There is!!!! Yes, it's expensive but I don't care, the company's paying my leave!

3) I am back on track!

I have been whining and whining (totally) about not being able to organise myself and stuff like that... Well, now... everything fell into place. All my files are organised... all my documents are in order and the best part of all, no mistakes for 2 days? hehe

4) Unit - Season 1

The boss being his enthusiastic self, lent me his Unit - Season 1 which stars 'the President' of 24... well, his the only one I know.

5) A gift!

Yes... because of my dedication and hard work (naks!), I got this as a gift

Do you feel frustrated that you have worked for like 8-10 hours yet you don't feel you have accomplished anything?

Do you feel that you have set your goals and tasks for the day but then only half of the 'list' was done?

I have been doing it for sometime.

Our project is close to completion. People are beginning to feel the pressure... up to their neck! As for me, to help out, I try to extend my services (meaning writing letters, researching for previous letters, call our subcontractors, etc) to other people to move forward.

Due to this, my own work is now being sacrificed. I don't have anybody to cry out help to... just giving them a big smile and say, "Let me help you with that".

I don't want my work to suffer but I also don't want these people (the ones I'm helping) to be shouted at. I mean I understand the feeling of someone blaming you for something that you knew about 3-4 days only.

I'm thinking if I should stay behind and try to do my work after office hours but I know that is not the solution...

So... I am trying to think of another way to deal with this. Hopefully, I find the answers soon (very soon).

Why do we meet certain people who will just confuse us?

Why do we get to know someone and then all of a sudden leave us... not knowing the reason why?

Why do we tend to neglect the person who loves us so much? who's willing to give us everything they have... yet we feel it's not enough?

Why do we seek for other people's attention when there is someone who notices every minute detail about you?

Why do we like making things complicated? Why?

Why do we seek answers which we know best to be left unanswered because whatever the answer will be... it will be just wishful thinking...

Why?

Why?